Smell The Change The Wind Brings

I think, sometimes, life denies us certain things.

Not because it is trying to add to a young adult's cycle of angst. Not because it is trying to make our lives "suck" or that it has something personal against you.

But because we are not ready. Because we need space and time to grow. Because we need to learn to understand the meaning behind our existence. Because there are better things planned out in the future that we do not know about.

I'm obviously not ready yet. 9 months to mature and react better to ugly people or situations.

Wish me luck!

And if you have recently been denied something, take heart that somewhere out there, there's a bigger picture that will make sense.

"Somehow everything's gonna fall right into place
if we only had a way to make it all fall faster everyday."

Soooooooooooooo, Zhiren, don't take it too hard yah? =)

HOMG lol do i sound like im on drugs? I sound so zen xD

I'm Here by Soulja feat Aoyama Thelma

Baby boy, atashi wa koko ni iru yo, doko mo ikazu ni matteru yo
You know dat I love you dakara koso, shinpai shinakute iin da yo
Donna ni tooku ni itemo kawaranai yo, kono kokoro
Iitai koto wakaru desho?
Anata no koto matteru yo (matteru yo)

Bukiyou na ore, tooku ni iru kimi
Tsutaetai kimochi sono mama iezu ni, kimi wa icchimatta
Ima ja nokosareta kimi wa arubamu no naka
Denpa de shika aenai hibi, dakedo mienai ze kimi no hohoemi
Kimi no nukumori kami no kaori, kono nodo no kawaki wa sono mama mitasarezu ni
Sugiteku hibi no naka nanda ka kimi no omokage hitasura sagashita
Kimi to yoku aruita ano michi wa, ima ore dake no ashioto ga hibiite ita
Nna koto yori omae no hou wa genki ka? Chanto meshi kutteru ka?
Chikushou, yappa ienee ya
Mata kondo okuru yo, ore kara no letter

Baby boy, atashi wa koko ni iru yo, doko mo ikazu ni matteru yo
You know dat I love you dakara koso, shinpai shinakute iin da yo
Donna ni tooku ni itemo kawaranai yo, kono kokoro
Iitai koto wakaru desho?
Anata no koto matteru yo (matteru yo)

Kamakura no sunahama de mita kimi no sugata, nami ni nomareta kimi ni iitai kotoba
Nandaka maji setsunee otoko na no ni nande...kotoba dete konee ya
Oboetemasu ka? Kimi to itta karaoke no naka
Ore ga ireta kyoku no kotoba monitaa ukanda mama
Honto wa kimi ni tsutaetakatta
Kimi to futarikiri de hajimete machiawase wo shita ano hi
Marude guuzen ni atta ka no you ni hashagi
Hohoemu kimi ga wasurerarenai tte
Hanashi kanari sore chimatta ga wakaru yo na? Ore ga iitai kotoba
Shit nokori kaku basho ga nee ya
Gomen, tsugi wa zettai ni okuru kara

Baby boy, atashi wa koko ni iru yo, doko mo ikazu ni matteru yo
You know dat I love you dakara koso, shinpai shinakute iin da yo
Donna ni tooku ni itemo kawaranai yo, kono kokoro
Iitai koto wakaru desho?
Anata no koto matteru yo (matteru yo)

Ore ga motto kanemochi dattara, motto matomo na shigoto wo shitetara
Moshimo subete gisei ni dekita no nara, ore wa zettai ni kimi wo...
Da ga please kanchigai dake wa sunna, kimi ni sabishii omoi wa sasetakunee ga
Isogashii naka anma hanasenee ga
Baby believe kore wa all for our future
But shoujiki, ima sugu kimi to aitai, ima sugu dakishimete yaritai
Mukashi, kimi ga ore no tonari de suwatteta seki ni wa, mou daremo inai tte...
Maa, sonna koto wa iin da, iitai koto wa sonnan ja neen da
Imasara da ga, zutto iitakatta kotoba wo kome okuru unsent letter

Baby girl, atashi wa koko ni iru yo, doko mo ikazu ni matteru yo
You know dat I love you dakara koso, shinpai shinakute iin da yo
Donna ni tooku ni itemo kawaranai yo, kono kokoro
Iitai koto wakaru desho?
Anata no koto matteru yo

Baby boy, atashi wa koko ni iru yo, doko mo ikazu ni matteru yo
You know I love you dakara koso, shinpai shinakute iin da yo
Donna ni tooku ni itemo kawaranai yo, kono kokoro
Ima nara sunao ni ieru yo
I don't ever wanna let you go

Old song released Sept 2007. I am really slow to the max lol >.<　

Absinthe Promises

Before i launch into a summary of Saturday's drinking outing, let me shamelessly plug a new singer whom I've recently discovered. If there is one geniunely talented singer who deserves the kind of the mainstream attention that shit like jonas bro and miley cyrus are getting, it's Lesley Roy.



This album is seriously good stuff. I hear track after track of power pop songs with the most meaningful lyrics; and it's seriously rare for me to like the entire album so much that i put all 13 songs on replay. Changed the song on the imeem player to my favourite track off the album, Unbeautiful.

Anyhootz, i finally got to see the INSIDE of homeclub on saturday. I really really really like the atmosphere there man i wanna go back soon!! I hope tanyinghao will keep his promise of going back there when he has the cash because i really really really wanna drink absinthe xD

Not much to say about giraffe and erm universityclassouting. I thought initially that I could hang out with both the guys and the class but i think i devoted 7/8 of my time at giraffe with the guys. Hahaha the social butterflying thing died beyond the usual group photos. There is a deep seated issue on my mind regarding this and that will probably be addressed in the coming few posts... Lol coz its all getting built up as angst in my system.

Epic picture of the day.


Hahaha and don't order liquer at giraffe plz look how they ripped us off! Lol ok fine i set the wrong focus so don't ask me why jon and yh look clearer than the drink..

Bare Essentials

MIZZ HENGGG, WHAT HAPPENED TO SINGSOC?!?!?!? ;P

Hahahahahaha my image of you coming back to vjc to wax lyrical about studying in london and joining singsoc has been ruined! Lol butbutbut table tennis is good... My ogl is from table tennis too maybe ill PICK HIS BRAIN about table tennis tips and pass them along to you..

And sylar really does become good 4 years from now. I kid you not. He even has a son now lol although i dont know if i should feel sad about that (coz that would mean he has a woman unless he adopted the kid). And lo and behold, they decide to kill him off when he's happily settled and harmless. The episode was so sad larh and so explosive, LITERALLY.

Anywayyy back from all that digressing, mizz heng, i really really wanna be in london for christmas!! Not just for the mega boxing day sale but it'll be really cool larh snowy christmas and all that.. But then i have a huge problem..





I've been spending wayyy too much (and my wardrobe has no space man). I think my bank account hasnt fully recovered from the japan trip yet D: Mizz Hengggg i cant afford a trip to london this year man and i doubt my parents will say yes to two holidays in a year.. PLEASE TRAVEL AROUND EUROPE NEXT YR I PROMISE I WILL SAVE UP ENOUGH BY THEN!

Secret Valentine By We The Kings

Soft kiss and wine
What a pretty friend of mine
We’re finally intertwined
Nervous and shy
For the moment we will come
Alive
Tonight
Secret valentine

We’ll write a song
That turns out the lights
When both boy and girl start suddenly shaking inside
Don’t waste your time
Speed up your breathing
Just close your eyes
We’ll hope it’s not for nothing at all

Lay down, be still
Don’t worry, talk they will
I’ll be loving you until
Morning’s first light
Breaks tomorrow, I’ll take care
Of you
Tonight
Secret valentine

We’ll write a song
That turns out the lights
When both boy and girl start suddenly shaking inside
Don’t waste your time
Speed up your breathing
Just close your eyes
We’ll hope it’s not for nothing at all

When guilt fills your head
Brush off, rise up from the dead
This is
The moment that we
Will come alive
Brace yourself for love
Sweet love
Secret love

We’ll write a song
That turns out the lights
When both boy and girl start suddenly shaking inside
Don’t waste your time
Speed up your breathing
Just close your eyes
We’ll hope it’s not for nothing at all

We’ll write a song (we’ll write a song)
That turns out the lights (turns out the lights)
When both boy and girl start suddenly shaking inside
(Nothing at all)
Don’t waste your time
Speed up your breathing
(Nothing at all)
Just close your eyes
We’ll hope it’s not for nothing at all
Nothing at all

Actually, heck the lyrics. They don't really mean very much, i just like how the song sounds hurhurhur~

Shit man, i realised that im moving back to mainstream english music. OH NOESSSSSS MY TOESSSSS fuck that man i hope anna tsuchiya releases her album soon.

Full Speed Ahead

I've never liked the idea that one's life can change in the blink of an eye. It just appears to me that people would put in this insane amount of effort to get to where they wanted, just to have the rug pulled right out under their feet.

Just. Like. That.

One slip-up is all it takes darling, so watch where you put them feet.

It's a crummy feeling to know it all boils down to today. It is as if motion has slowed to some sort of uncomfortable limbo; and i'm hanging by a thread to know how it all falls through.

I realised that i've had a shift in priorities lately. I'm caring very much less about my grades than i ever did; does this make me radically different from who i am? Perception is reality; i'm never really me unless you believe it to be. So if i told you i'm near the brink of a college dropout, how does my reality change?

I want singing lessons, japanese lessons, drinking sessions, mindlessyetsensible conversations with important people in my life. I want to make beautiful music, run away in a band, marry zachary quinto, do some serious acting, get back on stage, make a movie, win an oscar. I want to be taken seriously, change myself to change the world, do something that is actually useful to my surroundings(no, management science and statistics do not count), earn money doing something i actually love.

I want many things. But my philosophy in life is that we cannot always have everything we want.

So i'd settle for just two. Let me get out of homgwtfbbqbizness and let me marry zachary quinto. That's all i need. Really.